Everybody's Hurt

A short note.

We all have been hurt sometimes now haven't we? A strange feeling when you feel it. It has hatred to be angry. It has pain to be endured. But, it has compassion to forgive. Cheating couples? Heart breaker words? Or maybe a final goodbye? You're not the only one who've felt it.

I've been through a very sad goodbye. I couldn't help myself to get over it. I became pathetic. Live my life like there was no future. No reason to live on. No more bright smiles. Always pessimistic stories. But, all the things you regret ,all the things that make you sad, it doesn't matter. You can't hold yourself back anymore. You have to keep on living. And that's why  when you really have to say goodbye.You have to let go. You can't let you ego turns your love into selfishness. If you force your love to someone else, you're no more than a worthless filth. Isn't it better to see someone you love truly love someone else they than see them lying while looking deep into your eyes?

Besides, everybody's hurt now isn't it?

An unlucky Deal..

Hey guys, how's it going? I hope you all doing good today. Hmm let's see what i'm gonna share about today? I didn't do a lot of interesting things for a couple of days. And interesting things seems didn't come to too. So i must say things have been boring. In this case, maybe i'm gonna share you about what has been in my head around.

Apparently all my couple friends have been breaking up. I wouldn't tell who and why and how many couples who have just broke up. And the reason is, either i don't love you no more, we're not meant to be together again, or i can't give you my attention anymore. Well, fair enough for a hypocritical bullshit. Because in the end, the truth is there is a new someone in mind. Or maybe the old someone has come back. Or maybe it is true. Well, i don't know guys. It seems everyone that told me their story share the mutual problem, this problem. And they are really depressed and suffered a great loss. Some of them even cried and eventually lost their life.

They told me their couple changed upside down. Usually they send " Good night babe, sweet dream blah blah blah"  to "G'nite". From " Have you eat? Do you want to eat with me? "  to " Just eat! I don't want to take care of you if you're sick". Phew, that's hurt fellas. That really do. Let me ask you why are you doing this? If you don't love them why did you say i love you at all? Why did you want to be their couple? For a game? For a mere status? Why did you want to hurt them? They love you. They really do. And is this what you give them? An Ignorance? Or a painful goodbye? I know it is your right to love someone else. But please gently let them go. You all could have been friends. Why hurting them?

Imagine if you love someone and that someone seems love you back and you two get into a very perfect relationship. But at some point they changed. They become ignorant and eventually gone. And when you asked them, they mad at you and they get upset. And finally they said I'm sorry i want a break. I can't take it any more. I'm busy right now. When you said i understand they just gone. Only a "thank you for your understanding" left as a final word. A day seems like a month without them. Thinking of them when they are not thinking of you. Hoping they would come back when they hope you wouldn't. Hoping you would open a new page with them when they close yours. Or maybe they want to open up a new one with a new special someone. What would you do? You have enough tears come out from your eyes already. You feel hatred and sorrow at the same time. You want to let it go but you can't. Seems no life awaits before you. What would you do? Post i still love you . I will still be here for you as your status and personal message and hoping they will care and come back? Try to reverse the story. When that someone is you. And you are your couple.And why i can write this story?




I could've sworn  this was happen in my life.

HJ - Mardi Gras

So this short story started when i was going to work overnight at Mr Jacks for the first time and i was very excited. Approximately 8 pm i was getting ready when i realized i lost my name badge. So i spent 30 minutes just to searched that little - precious thing until i finally gave up. Then i walked down to the bus stop and it was starting to rain heavily and the worst thing was the bus didn't show up so i had to catch a cab because it was 15 minutes to 10 pm. Luckily i didn't come late. I came about 10 mins earlier and met my teammates for the shift which is Mr Pradeep Khatri - The assistant Manager and Mr Manoj Rai - The fastest burger maker I've seen in front of my eyes. Well, both of them are Nepalese. And i was kinda shocked at the first time because Manoj seems like a Chinese guy because of his little eyes. :) .So that was us 3. Me working at the back making burgers , Manoj stay in the front counter , and the Manager handling the money. At first, we were not too busy because not too many customer came until 1 am. After 1 am we cleaned up the entire freaking broiler. Every little pieces we have to clean because it was scheduled to maintaining the broiler. We were maintaining while the store was open so we had to be aware of customer when they came. It took us 2 hours just to take off all the parts , cleaned it  , and put it back together.The rest of the day was cleaning the floor and preparing stuff for breakfast. Lot of work ,eh? Well, it was alright because it kept you stay awake and at the end of the day ( or i have to say night ) we were very sleepy especially Manoj. I remember his face but i couldn't see his eyes because his eyes are little like those Chinese guys. During the end of the shift Jeff Paz - Store Manager came to work after he had a shift  yesterday and finished when i came. I don't know how the guy did it but he managed to came very fresh in the morning. After that 3 crews came to start their shift.Begin from Parsuram , Sally , and Gautam came last. After they were ready, i signed off and head straight back home and it was raining (again) so i had to run to the bus stop (again).

When i got home i changed my clothes and couldn't do anything anymore and sleep afterwards until noon. I didn't say i don't want to do overnight again.I'd love to considering bigger pay. :)

Well guys that was my story for the day. Looking forward to share another part of my life. And for my best friend SUJAN MAHARJAN, if you read this then you are a MA CI KI . (hope i spell it right) :)

One day of love , One day of chocolate.

Just like Christmas and New Year , Valentine celebrated by all people across the globe at 14th February. It is identical about love and chocolate. But, candle light dinner and more romantic date ideas has been more common now. In fact, many people use this event to propose their spouse and fiancée. I can't remember my first valentine day. Not even last year valentine. All i can remember is I'm single most of the time when valentine come. Sometimes i wonder " Am i cursed by the cupid so i have to be broken hearted all the time when valentine come? " . Well , i guess valentine is not about your girlfriend or boyfriend , is it? I can share with my mates or my family. The thing is they are too far away from me. A phone call won't be enough. A chat won't erase the broken heart. A web cam talk won't swipe away the tears. But i guess that is how we know we long for each other , isn't it? we care for each other and we love each other. If you don't  have someone you love just be grateful that you have your family and friends right? You can share with them. Isn't it about love? Not about boyfriend or girlfriend right?. Well , if you do have partner just love them with all your heart but don't cross the line. Being possessive is bad for your relationship guys. You can't keep asking extremely detailed question to your love partner. If you love them you have to trust them. If they love you back they won't cheat on you. Not even to the most handsome guy on the planet or the sexiest lady in the entire world. I remember my old days as a lover. I loved my partner very much but i treated her the wrong way. I was too over possessive with her and she was hurt. Not only hurt but also annoyed. I regret i didn't fully trust her so i will say I'm sorry to my recent partner. You taught me the right way to love someone and I'm sorry i couldn't please you. I know I'm not much of a guy. But i bet ya no one love you like the way i did. Anyway , this is the last day I'm wearing your necklace and if it could talk it would know how much i love you and what I've been through. Well i promised to give it back and i will. You're going somewhere far right? where we can't meet again as often as we like and as long as we like. I hope you can find a better life. And i hope you can be a better person and achieve your dream. Well guys that was my story. Each and every one of you have your own story. Every piece of your life puzzle has a big meaning and without it, it wouldn't complete as a perfect puzzle. Be grateful of what you have because there is people who have less than you do. Maybe what you have is their dream. So why you are not satisfied?


Alright guys that is all from me for today. My cousin and her family are going back to hometown tomorrow and i wish them a safe trip and good time. Don't forget to send my regards to my family. Wish i could go with you guys. :)